Seeping

seeping through my pours.
i frantically search the drawers.
a jelaous rage has shadowed me.
he cheated.
he lied.
i know he eyed a couple of those girls.
i scream, i shout.
i doubt he'll ever come back again.
i feel strain against my eyes.
another wave hits and swallows.
leaving me gasping for air.
i push on through, frantic for a little breeze.
a grab the gun.
i feel the pressure seizing up my brain.
then it comes.
the black i yearned, the jelaous wave has gone.
i do not breathe i do not see i only hear the music.